I'm too Halloween

No amount of wine
will bring out my shine
I know you thought it might
but it's not happening tonight
I can't fix what's broken in me
I've failed to heal us
I wish I could find a place
to belong
I feel as though
I'm a broken machine
I felt so much
and now there's
almost nothing left
I used to slice and dice
Now that wouldn't quite suffice
I'm surprised I get any sleep
Tossing and turning
Stuck inside my dreams
They're so repetitive
I won't hold back this time
and I won't say  "sorry"
I'll cut you out
Like snowflakes in paper
To be creative
and get on with my life
I'll make you cry
This time...
Purposely
Just like you'd do
I guess
That's the Scorpio in me
In us...
Eye for an eye/tooth for a tooth
aye?
Just let us go
because being snuffed out
Is better than this fucking slow burn
This salty taste
In my mouth
My tears are old
and crystallized
you've pained me so much
I'm completely paralyzed
A paraplegic, murder/suicide
There's no treatment
There's no cure
There's no perfect
You're too Christmas
I'm too Halloween
So on we go
It was never as it seemed
I'll snip this frayed, ragged strand
Now off we go, into never-ever land
The rope won't hold us
any longer
I'm sure
So here's my goodbye
if you'll find some good in the word
Unlike my presence
I know
It sounds absurd
Farewell, my saving grace
Farewell, my lullabye