Nothing is Ever Good Enough

As rain falls softly with a warm wind, my thoughts are intrusive. I am to be thankful for this night, a moment of love touches my heart.

I see the light and comfort in this darkness. My skin tingles with excitement of the sensation of the water, nothing is better.

I live for these nights. Excitement hits my belly, making me warm and cozy. I feel fresh and new. The best I’ve felt in days.

As quickly as the feelings came, the wind turns cold. The warmth leaves my body slowly. A disappointment rises in my heart.

It never stays here. Love and happiness, as quickly as it is found, it is lost. Emotions can be so tricky and deceitful.

Depression creeps, waiting for a moment to tackle my entire being. I am left alone. Daring is my heart to live, I fall, I fail.

I return to my reality saddened once more. Though thankful the moments I experienced, nothing will ever be good enough.