Submissions by Monkeymaham2
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
LOVE POEM
Published
29th Jun 2021 9:36am
29th Jun 2021 9:36am
#2 Lost Love
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Always number two, number two my entire life. It’s the story I live that I can not break free from. On the physical pain of existence I constantly compete with others. I compete even if there is no competition. Even when I know that I lost before I even started. I feel so empty inside when I think back on how much effort I put into you. For me to love you, for you to look for other love. How empty my heart aches. The tears have been running down my face for weeks as you left so many signs to show this coming. I tried so hard to ignore it but you made it plain. You can’t lie to me. How...
Always number two, number two my entire life. It’s the story I live that I can not break free from. On the physical pain of existence I constantly compete with others. I compete even if there is no competition. Even when I know that I lost before I even started. I feel so empty inside when I think back on how much effort I put into you. For me to love you, for you to look for other love. How empty my heart aches. The tears have been running down my face for weeks as you left so many signs to show this coming. I tried so hard to ignore it but you made it plain. You can’t lie to me. How...
#depression
#heartbroken
#FeelingLost
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2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
9th May 2021 9:11am
9th May 2021 9:11am
Comfort Zone
It’s been days since the sun graced my skin to warm my heart
The lack of freckles on my body prove the statement even more so
Empty feelings pull as I move to sit nearer to what light there is
Tap tap tap on the metal above, crashing, thunder, soothing, calming
Waves crash on the window, dripping down the crack on the inside
I swipe it up, looking lazily at the liquid dripping down my finger tip
Sticking my finger to my tongue, I taste the bitter salt from the ocean
My gaze shifts, focusing to the window, just beyond the foggy glass
Clouds bring back...
The lack of freckles on my body prove the statement even more so
Empty feelings pull as I move to sit nearer to what light there is
Tap tap tap on the metal above, crashing, thunder, soothing, calming
Waves crash on the window, dripping down the crack on the inside
I swipe it up, looking lazily at the liquid dripping down my finger tip
Sticking my finger to my tongue, I taste the bitter salt from the ocean
My gaze shifts, focusing to the window, just beyond the foggy glass
Clouds bring back...
#sadness
#depression
#loneliness #dark
#loneliness #dark
332 reads
1 Comment
LOVE POEM
Published
13th Apr 2021 11:10pm
13th Apr 2021 11:10pm
7 Days
Day One – Happy content and feeling the best I’ve felt in days
Day Two – Calm but sleepier than yesterday, missing something
Day 3 – Day dreams, off into the distance I stare while working
Day 4 – Eating more because I feel like I need to fix something broken
5 – Longing, distracted…why am I like this? Focus…sadness…silence
6 I break down and ask to see you, maybe somehow you want me too?
Reset – As skin on skin meets, you envelope me in your love, I am free
Day One – ....
Day Two – Calm but sleepier than yesterday, missing something
Day 3 – Day dreams, off into the distance I stare while working
Day 4 – Eating more because I feel like I need to fix something broken
5 – Longing, distracted…why am I like this? Focus…sadness…silence
6 I break down and ask to see you, maybe somehow you want me too?
Reset – As skin on skin meets, you envelope me in your love, I am free
Day One – ....
#lover
#IMissYou
252 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
9th Apr 2021 00:04am
9th Apr 2021 00:04am
Passionate Moment
Laying on the bed, I accidentally think of tomorrow and feel saddened
As this night goes on, wanting to be trapped here in time for eternity
With you, these moments together escape too quickly from my grasp
Face down, I bury myself deeper In the covers to escape my thoughts
As if like magic you seem to read some sort of thought to combat the crazy
As then I feel your warm skin on my back, weight shift, hand grabbing mine gently
It’s these little acts of passion that connect me to you more each time
As this night goes on, wanting to be trapped here in time for eternity
With you, these moments together escape too quickly from my grasp
Face down, I bury myself deeper In the covers to escape my thoughts
As if like magic you seem to read some sort of thought to combat the crazy
As then I feel your warm skin on my back, weight shift, hand grabbing mine gently
It’s these little acts of passion that connect me to you more each time
#love
219 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
29th Mar 2021 9:54pm
29th Mar 2021 9:54pm
Shower Breakdown
I arrived smelling of seawater and sweat from the heat of the Spring day
Sand in my hair, scalp itchy and body sticky from the ocean’s salt
Insisting we shower together, I detest, such a personal action
You convinced me slowly, unzipping my dress, removing my clothes
My walls are still up in many ways, I trust you but I’m unsure of your reasons
I am scared because this is such a sacred and private activity for me
Taking my hand, guiding me into the warm mist of water with confidence,
Gently you take your time to get me comfortable, kissing me,
Wishing...
Sand in my hair, scalp itchy and body sticky from the ocean’s salt
Insisting we shower together, I detest, such a personal action
You convinced me slowly, unzipping my dress, removing my clothes
My walls are still up in many ways, I trust you but I’m unsure of your reasons
I am scared because this is such a sacred and private activity for me
Taking my hand, guiding me into the warm mist of water with confidence,
Gently you take your time to get me comfortable, kissing me,
Wishing...
#lover
#emotional
294 reads
1 Comment
LOVE POEM
Published
28th Dec 2020 9:20pm
28th Dec 2020 9:20pm
Our Love Loop
Laying in bed, another night of staring at the darkness beyond my bedroom door thinking, pondering
I close my eyes, lay on my side and touch my hip gently, slowly, pretending that it is your hands
To think of the heat of your body often makes my mind drift to an alternate imaginative world.
Wanting only you, arrive for your presence, your embrace, every bit of just you to envelope me.
The way that your hands fall around my body, Take your Clothes off, now, and I do, no hesitation.
Pulling me into another odd position that may or may not...
I close my eyes, lay on my side and touch my hip gently, slowly, pretending that it is your hands
To think of the heat of your body often makes my mind drift to an alternate imaginative world.
Wanting only you, arrive for your presence, your embrace, every bit of just you to envelope me.
The way that your hands fall around my body, Take your Clothes off, now, and I do, no hesitation.
Pulling me into another odd position that may or may not...
#love
#sex
#ForbiddenLove
634 reads
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LOVE POEM
Published
18th Oct 2020 3:06pm
18th Oct 2020 3:06pm
1/3 of my love is yours...
Each time that I go a week without you,
I am close to giving up by the last day...
Walking threw the doorway of your home,
Greeted by your fur babies and Pumpkin...
Your arms placed on my waist one at a time,
Weight of your head resting on my shoulder...
Neck hairs standing on edge in anticipation,
Your smile, just is everything in that moment...
I missed you, maybe not the other inside me,
Setting my soul ablaze, on fire, hot smolders, blink...
Getting so worked up, more than sex, more than body,
You are a beautiful soul that just Brings...
I am close to giving up by the last day...
Walking threw the doorway of your home,
Greeted by your fur babies and Pumpkin...
Your arms placed on my waist one at a time,
Weight of your head resting on my shoulder...
Neck hairs standing on edge in anticipation,
Your smile, just is everything in that moment...
I missed you, maybe not the other inside me,
Setting my soul ablaze, on fire, hot smolders, blink...
Getting so worked up, more than sex, more than body,
You are a beautiful soul that just Brings...
#love
#MentalHealth
#UnrequitedLove
254 reads
3 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
2nd Oct 2020 6:15am
2nd Oct 2020 6:15am
"Meep"
You are like a drug in my mental system
Shocking each need and want going into the day
The first thought I wake up to in the morning
The last thing I think about before I sleep
Its hating this feeling more than even depression
Feeling lost without knowing if I am wanted equally
Do you want me the way that I want you?
That lady came back from vaca, maybe thats all you needed?
A reason to not feel so lonely...my fears? Facts?
I honestly don't even know since you made time for me
Now won't even spare me time to talk, lost again
Checking my...
Shocking each need and want going into the day
The first thought I wake up to in the morning
The last thing I think about before I sleep
Its hating this feeling more than even depression
Feeling lost without knowing if I am wanted equally
Do you want me the way that I want you?
That lady came back from vaca, maybe thats all you needed?
A reason to not feel so lonely...my fears? Facts?
I honestly don't even know since you made time for me
Now won't even spare me time to talk, lost again
Checking my...
#FeelingLost
400 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
28th Sep 2020 6:38pm
28th Sep 2020 6:38pm
Troubled Heart
I'd rather be alone than be wrong
A decision I can't be so certain of
To make myself, take responsibility
No one takes that from me but me
The love in my heart is so much
The fears of hurting others, greater
Yet I hurt, slash, give pain to love
I am broken, I am certain of that
I self destruct when goodness arrives
I push away kindness to welcome pain
I survived so far, on my own I did it
This survival is not all I want in life
But it's all that I know from the...
A decision I can't be so certain of
To make myself, take responsibility
No one takes that from me but me
The love in my heart is so much
The fears of hurting others, greater
Yet I hurt, slash, give pain to love
I am broken, I am certain of that
I self destruct when goodness arrives
I push away kindness to welcome pain
I survived so far, on my own I did it
This survival is not all I want in life
But it's all that I know from the...
#love
#LifeCycle
#SelfReflection
256 reads
1 Comment
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
28th Sep 2020 6:31pm
28th Sep 2020 6:31pm
Rain Drop
The rain at my fingertips making the dreary hot day beautiful again.
How miserable many must be, to hate the rain so much as they do.
The bringer of life and health that is the flowing water from above.
We need these rainy days, warm to skins touch and physical in brace.
To nap a day away, sip tea or coffee by the window or simply play in it.
Happiness to me, is feeling, smelling and enjoying the entire experience of it all.
To walk or even dance my worries away for a moment that I've needed so greatly.
I smile but...
How miserable many must be, to hate the rain so much as they do.
The bringer of life and health that is the flowing water from above.
We need these rainy days, warm to skins touch and physical in brace.
To nap a day away, sip tea or coffee by the window or simply play in it.
Happiness to me, is feeling, smelling and enjoying the entire experience of it all.
To walk or even dance my worries away for a moment that I've needed so greatly.
I smile but...
#rain
#water
#SelfReflection
467 reads
5 Comments
FICTIONAL PROSE
Published
28th Sep 2020 5:14am
28th Sep 2020 5:14am
Premonition
Breathing carefully under the light of the moon, a man's whisper is as clear as day, "no one leaves alive". I realize someone is right behind me. The cold of slimy fingers can be felt threw my shirt, hovering above my right shoulder blade. I bolt to run. I can't seem to run fast enough. My body is sluggish and heavy, as if someone was pulling me backwards threw water. The world spins and I run, Ive come to a complete circle. I stop and turn around. I can see a woman ten feet away, her chest still and immobile. It should be rising. What is she I wonder? The bringer of death? No one knows but...
#dreams
#scary
#nightmares #scifi
#nightmares #scifi
342 reads
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LOVE POEM
Published
28th Sep 2020 4:52am
28th Sep 2020 4:52am
IT
I did not see It, until I was too late. That which I don't want to hear nor say out loud, It. It carries a heavy burden that weighs down on my shoulders. It is Leveled but just barely reaching a threshold that could crumble my bones beneath the weight.
I fear to even think of it, the thought of such a thing. To think of It is torture. To produce It a reason sends physical pain down my spine. To admit my guilt, my hairs stand on end. It breaks my heart into a million pieces. The It I am avoiding...is Truth.
A Truth, my truth, a dirty secret that came out loud, escaped my...
I fear to even think of it, the thought of such a thing. To think of It is torture. To produce It a reason sends physical pain down my spine. To admit my guilt, my hairs stand on end. It breaks my heart into a million pieces. The It I am avoiding...is Truth.
A Truth, my truth, a dirty secret that came out loud, escaped my...
#anxiety
#love
#honesty
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2 Comments
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