Wishing

i wish i knew how
to figure out myself
how to translate my thoughts
and how to show how i feel
to explain myself
i wish they'd understand
that i hurt
my masks are numerous
im not happy with myself
i wish i could sleep
without dreaming
and thinking constantly
about what i've done
i wish i could live my life
without fear of hurting
or hurting someone else
in happieness and cheer
without my masks
holding things in
i wish i could let go
of things that made me
who i am
what influences me to be
that way i am
i wish i could float
into space
into nothingness
into cold
into forever