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Why so serious? Detective
You think you know me
But no one ever sees
These jaded green
agate eyes
Peering into your soul
I can see your insecurities
Your hate and misery it infects me
It's always been a double sided gift
A curse
Something I live with
Being able to read a person like a book
I used to profile crooks
There motives and ticks
patterns if any and where next would they dig
Putting myself in there shoes
Do and feel as they do
The horrors and sin
The flesh and the skin
The thrill , feeling it deep within my bones
The victims
So cold
Now years have passed but I still have the dreams
Waking up screaming thinking I'm them
The cold sweats , the flashbacks
The pistol I hold so dear to my head
Wishing the voices would just go away
I feel thru you
And most people are ugly inside
Just like you
It's funny to me
I've met killers cannibals rapists
And I relate to them more than you
Least there real and true
To themselves
most people are fake living an illusion
With delusions and psychosis
Narcissistic with some sociopathic tendencies
Barely honest with themselves let alone friends or family
One of my best friends is a killer
I know of 3
Coolest dude you'll ever meet
I mean
maybe not to you but to me
I can see clearly unbiasedly
I'm real straight up and never disrespectful
In my small circle disrespectful people just kinda go missing
Nowhere to be seen, families start searching, hoping
and then start missing and denying
There's steps to the acceptance
I get it really i do
I just don't feel it
I've seen so many dead I don't even flinch
I've lost so many friends it takes time to remember all of them
I know that's sick I'm fucked up, can't even remember his dead friends
I've always understood death I look at it completely different
And people can never get it ,they think I'm a heartless prick
Shit ,
when my father was killed
And taken from this earth to early
I was 13
There was an open casket
I walked up and touched his face
Saying only
with an emotionless look
“His lips are so blue, but he looks good still ”
People lost it
Breaking down sobbing
hysterical crying
Saying that kid
he's evil what's wrong with him
That's his father why isn't he crying
They all wanted me to
But I never did
I sat and smiled thru the service
But this doesn't mean I didn't love him because I did
That was my dad, and he left just when I needed him
Leaving me to the wolves to fend for myself
And I did, emerging a warrior bloody with sins
Went down to hell and pissed on them
Screaming fuck the world now i'm your king
Went to heaven to and spit on them
Then sawed off some wings throwing them
Screaming everything happens for a reason
god must want you dead
On my path of survival I found myself
Enlightened and third eye awakened
I knew my worth
How much I could love and how much I could hurt
How far I could go if pushed just enough
You can't go any farther then I've gone trust me
Believe me I carry the souls of people with me
They will haunt me for eternity
They will always be with me
I wish my pops were around then so he could of saved me
Told me of the curse that you redeem after their passing
The blood thirst , their memories,
The chatter that never leaves me
Like a beehive in my head irritated and swarming
The misery of being lonely and forever to be
Only satisfied slightly with the most bizarre and extreme
Dark cold broken but definitely unique
Only taking company to entertain me
Just filling a void that's never ending
Praying for death to take me setting me free
Ending this game called life
that I never thought was even worth playing
It's pointless not logical
We consume , we eat , we breed, for what ?
To feel something you think you need?
To destroy a planet that we call mother
To hurt one another
All For nothing it's all pointless
I'm just experiencing life till i float free
Free from this flesh that constraints me
Keeping me here and keeping me weak
When my energy leaves me
And my spirit ascends away from this hell hole
Then and only
will I find peace
But no one ever sees
These jaded green
agate eyes
Peering into your soul
I can see your insecurities
Your hate and misery it infects me
It's always been a double sided gift
A curse
Something I live with
Being able to read a person like a book
I used to profile crooks
There motives and ticks
patterns if any and where next would they dig
Putting myself in there shoes
Do and feel as they do
The horrors and sin
The flesh and the skin
The thrill , feeling it deep within my bones
The victims
So cold
Now years have passed but I still have the dreams
Waking up screaming thinking I'm them
The cold sweats , the flashbacks
The pistol I hold so dear to my head
Wishing the voices would just go away
I feel thru you
And most people are ugly inside
Just like you
It's funny to me
I've met killers cannibals rapists
And I relate to them more than you
Least there real and true
To themselves
most people are fake living an illusion
With delusions and psychosis
Narcissistic with some sociopathic tendencies
Barely honest with themselves let alone friends or family
One of my best friends is a killer
I know of 3
Coolest dude you'll ever meet
I mean
maybe not to you but to me
I can see clearly unbiasedly
I'm real straight up and never disrespectful
In my small circle disrespectful people just kinda go missing
Nowhere to be seen, families start searching, hoping
and then start missing and denying
There's steps to the acceptance
I get it really i do
I just don't feel it
I've seen so many dead I don't even flinch
I've lost so many friends it takes time to remember all of them
I know that's sick I'm fucked up, can't even remember his dead friends
I've always understood death I look at it completely different
And people can never get it ,they think I'm a heartless prick
Shit ,
when my father was killed
And taken from this earth to early
I was 13
There was an open casket
I walked up and touched his face
Saying only
with an emotionless look
“His lips are so blue, but he looks good still ”
People lost it
Breaking down sobbing
hysterical crying
Saying that kid
he's evil what's wrong with him
That's his father why isn't he crying
They all wanted me to
But I never did
I sat and smiled thru the service
But this doesn't mean I didn't love him because I did
That was my dad, and he left just when I needed him
Leaving me to the wolves to fend for myself
And I did, emerging a warrior bloody with sins
Went down to hell and pissed on them
Screaming fuck the world now i'm your king
Went to heaven to and spit on them
Then sawed off some wings throwing them
Screaming everything happens for a reason
god must want you dead
On my path of survival I found myself
Enlightened and third eye awakened
I knew my worth
How much I could love and how much I could hurt
How far I could go if pushed just enough
You can't go any farther then I've gone trust me
Believe me I carry the souls of people with me
They will haunt me for eternity
They will always be with me
I wish my pops were around then so he could of saved me
Told me of the curse that you redeem after their passing
The blood thirst , their memories,
The chatter that never leaves me
Like a beehive in my head irritated and swarming
The misery of being lonely and forever to be
Only satisfied slightly with the most bizarre and extreme
Dark cold broken but definitely unique
Only taking company to entertain me
Just filling a void that's never ending
Praying for death to take me setting me free
Ending this game called life
that I never thought was even worth playing
It's pointless not logical
We consume , we eat , we breed, for what ?
To feel something you think you need?
To destroy a planet that we call mother
To hurt one another
All For nothing it's all pointless
I'm just experiencing life till i float free
Free from this flesh that constraints me
Keeping me here and keeping me weak
When my energy leaves me
And my spirit ascends away from this hell hole
Then and only
will I find peace
Published 22nd Sep 2017
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10th Dec 2017 2:05am
Oh Lord, this is such a deep peice for me made me think so much...
So fast. First the start of your poem made me stop. Just pause. It captured me. Then came the lines:
The horrors and sin
The flesh and the skin
The thrill , feeling it deep within my bones
The victims
So cold
Now years have passed but I still have the dreams
Waking up screaming thinking I'm them
The cold sweats , the flashbacks
The pistol I hold so dear to my head
Wishing the voices would just go away
I feel thru you
And most people are ugly inside
Just like you
It's funny to me
It was a perfect amount of horror and visually stunning at the same time. Its as if your trying to put up a warning. Only problem its too intreging. Then you captured my breath with the lines:
I've always understood death I look at it completely different
It put my mind in deep-thinker-of-the-universe mode. I thought how interesting it is when you befriend death himself. How death has so many sides. Like a diamond. Its beautiful, dangerous, exciting, peaceful, easy, and I could keep going.
Then my mind went to thinking about bigotory. Why all the judgements. I never understood them. My religious upbringing by a crazy religious parents kinda influenced my thoughts here. You may not quite understand me here.
I learned really young that if I wanted to prove my point I had to learn the bible. I had to learn about God. I had to learn about Jesus Christ. I had to learn about the Mormon religion. I had to read the book of Mormon. I had to most importantly learn about the atonement. My parents, and many other religious pharisees, believe that Jesus died for all of our sins. Then the next thing you know the very same people that tried to tell you Christ died for you, because he loved you and god loved you,are the very same people who treat you like shit on their shoes. When in reality the judgmental person(s) have just dined by the new testament part of the bible. I'm going to give a link to video to try to explain what I'm saying better.
https://youtu.be/1APw1Ux9w4M
Then I came to the thought of the old book called the five love languages by Dr. Sonething(I can't remember) Chapman . he called it a love meter or something corny. Anyways thought I'd just mention that. Then I came to the lines:
Leaving me to the wolves to fend for myself
And I did, emerging a warrior bloody with sins
Went down to hell and pissed on them
Screaming fuck the world now i'm your king
Went to heaven to and spit on them
Then sawed off some wings throwing them
Screaming everything happens for a reason
god must want you dead
On my path of survival I found myself
Enlightened and third eye awakened
I knew my worth
How much I could love and how much I could hurt
How far I could go if pushed just enough
You can't go any farther then I've gone trust me
Believe me I carry the souls of people with me
They will haunt me for eternity
They will always be with me
Which made me think of a refiners fire. How sometimes you have to break to be stronger. I once read a interesting book about a kid who kept breaking his own bones just to grow them back stronger. I think its called break. Not sure its been years. Then you wrote:
Just filling a void that's never ending
Praying for death to take me setting me free
Ending this game called life
that I never thought was even worth playing
It's pointless not logical
We consume , we eat , we breed, for what ?
To feel something you think you need?
To destroy a planet that we call mother
To hurt one another
All For nothing it's all pointless
It made me think if cycles of abuse.
Amazing work. My mysterious friend.
So fast. First the start of your poem made me stop. Just pause. It captured me. Then came the lines:
The horrors and sin
The flesh and the skin
The thrill , feeling it deep within my bones
The victims
So cold
Now years have passed but I still have the dreams
Waking up screaming thinking I'm them
The cold sweats , the flashbacks
The pistol I hold so dear to my head
Wishing the voices would just go away
I feel thru you
And most people are ugly inside
Just like you
It's funny to me
It was a perfect amount of horror and visually stunning at the same time. Its as if your trying to put up a warning. Only problem its too intreging. Then you captured my breath with the lines:
I've always understood death I look at it completely different
It put my mind in deep-thinker-of-the-universe mode. I thought how interesting it is when you befriend death himself. How death has so many sides. Like a diamond. Its beautiful, dangerous, exciting, peaceful, easy, and I could keep going.
Then my mind went to thinking about bigotory. Why all the judgements. I never understood them. My religious upbringing by a crazy religious parents kinda influenced my thoughts here. You may not quite understand me here.
I learned really young that if I wanted to prove my point I had to learn the bible. I had to learn about God. I had to learn about Jesus Christ. I had to learn about the Mormon religion. I had to read the book of Mormon. I had to most importantly learn about the atonement. My parents, and many other religious pharisees, believe that Jesus died for all of our sins. Then the next thing you know the very same people that tried to tell you Christ died for you, because he loved you and god loved you,are the very same people who treat you like shit on their shoes. When in reality the judgmental person(s) have just dined by the new testament part of the bible. I'm going to give a link to video to try to explain what I'm saying better.
https://youtu.be/1APw1Ux9w4M
Then I came to the thought of the old book called the five love languages by Dr. Sonething(I can't remember) Chapman . he called it a love meter or something corny. Anyways thought I'd just mention that. Then I came to the lines:
Leaving me to the wolves to fend for myself
And I did, emerging a warrior bloody with sins
Went down to hell and pissed on them
Screaming fuck the world now i'm your king
Went to heaven to and spit on them
Then sawed off some wings throwing them
Screaming everything happens for a reason
god must want you dead
On my path of survival I found myself
Enlightened and third eye awakened
I knew my worth
How much I could love and how much I could hurt
How far I could go if pushed just enough
You can't go any farther then I've gone trust me
Believe me I carry the souls of people with me
They will haunt me for eternity
They will always be with me
Which made me think of a refiners fire. How sometimes you have to break to be stronger. I once read a interesting book about a kid who kept breaking his own bones just to grow them back stronger. I think its called break. Not sure its been years. Then you wrote:
Just filling a void that's never ending
Praying for death to take me setting me free
Ending this game called life
that I never thought was even worth playing
It's pointless not logical
We consume , we eat , we breed, for what ?
To feel something you think you need?
To destroy a planet that we call mother
To hurt one another
All For nothing it's all pointless
It made me think if cycles of abuse.
Amazing work. My mysterious friend.
10th Dec 2017 3:02am
