This Dreadful Hatred

Observing here at the sleepwalking remains
This dreadful hatrid tears through me
A passionate burning misery i feel
It painfully clings to me like chains
So much of a grudge against all life
Why did i have to be left here alone
Filled with misery and resentment
I can't bear the pain any more
I wish i could be free from life
My spirit will soar into the sky
My flesh can rot as it's no longer needed
Anything to escape this life for i can't stand
Get me out of here into lifeless sleep
I will go and drift into the dark
I shall leave all my hatred behind
Leave who I am filled with rage at to suffer
Aching and burning with passionate rage
I anger with need to hurt
Anything for all to feel the pain i feel
So much emptiness and hurting
I shall make others feel extreme pain
Then I can be free