BrakeDown

I try to be happy and try to keep my dream of the little fantasy I had keep going, but there no place for me in here there wont be angels there wont be light. I try to keep on going but this dream more nightmare of mine I see my self going nuts smiling evilly, I am screaming, i'm  try to keep going I try to see the end of this hell. But it keeps coming back all  I hear it all "try keep your head up" "keep smiling" but y'all lairs more then I. Maybe it just time to let out this nightmare of mine, I see your smiling face you say "oh so sweet" you say "I love you" and yet you double cross me every second you get! I'm done pretending  to even care I never really had a place, so why should I now?? That little voice in my head  trying not to scream, trying not to cry out, but i'm done trying to hold back. I"m done trying to not want to kill you with all my might!, But here I am smiling at you when i"m dreaming of slowly ripping you up, hanging you from the roof watching you gasp for air like I did. I will make you feel the pain of what you did there no angels where I be going there wont be any for you either...so tell me why should I hold back anymore???