Unforgettable Imprint

You've been on my mind a lot
I know why, and so would you
But I can't talk about it
I don't really know how to
I'm scared of how someone else might handle it
I don't want to feel the icy lack of empathic understanding
You're the only one I trusted with this subject
And I'm lucky I did
 
That's how I feel, lucky
Because of the way it touched me
When you did all the right things
Without even knowing what they were
Either I was transparent
Or you have good intuition
But I won't forget it
Ever
 
There are no words to express my gratitude
Not as deeply as I feel it
It seems surreal in reflection
I can't believe I received something so beautiful
Out of the kindness of someone's heart
For no rhyme or reason
You just wanted me to be okay
Knowing that I wasn't
 
Do you remember what you told me after?
You said you knew that you'd bring it out of me
But you sure didn't show it
You gave me all the time I needed
With an extreme amount of patience
That I don't think most would have given
And yet, somehow kept guiding me towards your light
You reminded me what it was like to be cared about
But you spoke of it with such confidence and honesty
As if you knew this mission was what you were meant for
I could feel how you wanted to be there
And how you didn't want to leave me either
 
You only left when I was ready
Even though I could have stayed all night
I had to leave for understandable reasons
You told me you were sure it would be appreciated
I don't think it was though
And I just miss the way you said that
Because I think you felt the things in me they didn't
And that's messed up
 
I don't regret a moment of that night spent with you
It was the best thing that could have ever happened to me
It terrifies me to think of how it would have been without you
I know that's strange to say
But it was one of the safest feelings I've ever felt
And I really can't thank you enough
I just hope you're doing well
And that your life has improved in all the ways you needed
And I hope that everything you want falls straight into your hands
Because that's what you deserve
You are such a great person
And I know you're worth
 
I always knew, I did
But that moment exemplified all I thought and more
I'm sorry I wasn't capable of giving all I would have liked to
And that I didn't know how to pull out the parts of me I'd lost
The parts of me that could have made sure that you knew
What it meant to me to have you in my life
But I was so incredibly broken
And had no idea who I was
Maybe you could have helped me rediscover it
But it would have taken a lot more than I'd have wanted you to give
Knowing the risk if it failed since I was so unsure of myself
And you deserve so much better than that type of uncertainty
 
Honestly all I hope is that you understand
How much all of this meant to me
And how forever grateful I am
You truly touched a life
Brushed with a stroke of luck
I wore your glow once in the dark
Now your imprint remains
In permanent ink