Tired Of Life

I'm so fucking tired I just want to sleep
Tired of living and being alone
I'm so tired of feeling like this hole is too deep
Nothing is worth the rate on this loan

Where are you my love, where are you tonight
I'm shaking with fear that you're not alone
I can't take the pain, I give up the fight
I'm afraid I may die from fear of the unknown

But I'd rather not know, I'd much rather die
Than to find out you're happy and smiling
While looking in the eyes of another guy
Now my eyes are closing from hours of crying

This may very well be my last words to you
Every time I try to see you, excuses are found
I'd rather die not knowing than find out it's true
Please come and visit, I'll still be lonely underground


*04/28/2001