Suicide Note

I'm cutting my wrists and closing my eyes. My smile and laugh were just a disguise. I'm tired of living through broken lies. I'm pushing for distance and cutting our ties. I'm choosing a quicker way to my demise, and this time I won't give myself a chance to rise. I'm writing you this because it'll be a surprise. Unfortunately, I don't know why, so you wont know my cries. Some of these people; it's me they despise. I'm sure they'll be happy when im belly up, eyes to the skies. I guess what I'm saying is that I don't even know why I try. It's trial and error, but this time I'll die. With this razor, running water, and my last smoke, I'll leave you a note. I love you and goodnight.