back again

Just when i start to forget
I hear from you again

Just like a love sick pet
you take over my brain

i spend my evenings hoping ,
wishing all in vain
that one day in the future you will call my name,

Ive felt this pain for a long time
my heart knows only this

I feel like I'm committing a crime
longing for just one kiss

should i drowned all of my sorrows
or bow my head in shame
sometimes i am angry at you
but your not the one to blame

I wish i could find another you
someone to fill this gap
I'm not sure of anyone who
would put up with all my crap

my friends think that I'm crazy
when they hear me rant away
your minds a little hazy
your thoughts they seem to stray

fighting a losing  battle
that was never mine to win
I need to put up my  defences
and never let you in

i should want to get better
and never feel this way
but Ive  felt like this for so long now
I'm scared id miss the pain.