I Like To Think I'm Special

I really like to believe I'm special.
As if I'm making a mark on this world
But sadly, I'm also not that shallow,
 I'm a realist.
Reality states I'm as significant as a speck of dust.
Created by this universe but for what? Pointless existence? To be a slave?
Oh, sorry! I meant to say, "a contributing member to this society"
Last thing I want is to walk the same line as everybody else.
I'm more than just an ant marching in line back to it's hill.

I want a life with purpose
A life where I'm genuinely glad to be aLIVE
I capitalized live because I want to actually LIVE MY LIFE.
When I'm laying down in the fields looking at stars,
I want to feel as if gravity itself has depleted.
So I can be lifted away into the night sky.
I just want those stars in my hands.
I want to swallow the sun, so it's brightness will reside inside of me.
because even something like the sun has a purpose to be here.

If I could have one thing, it would be to just mean something.
To impact others lives like all my idols have done for me.
I would be the guy people look at and say,
"It was your words that kept me from jumping."