King of Sorrow

Open my eyes, close my heart.
Head down, spirit twisted in lustful memories.
Who knows pain more than I?

Excited by the thought, by its touch.
Wings crippled can't escape, can't fly away, trapped.
Comfortably nestled in misery, loving the lies.

Enjoying the bitterness, guilt becomes emptiness.
Heartaches are raging fires, consuming my soul.
Burning joyfully, leaving ashes and evaporated tears!
Screaming,

SAVE ME!
Under thunderous clouds and acid rain.
Cemetery prayers accompanied by tombstone wishes.
Patiently waiting for brighter days to appear.

Why cry?
Why try?
Why waste time?
Why should begging make you stay?

Given everything, broken,
confused, dazed, love is chance.
A token received, a roll of the dice, a rigged game.

Continue to play?