The Art Student Welcome Mingle

This building smells like the the break between easter and school when I was 10
Sprinklers and car rides
Afternoons at your aunts pool
The smell of chlorine mixed with dog
I hated it there but I loved swimming

Parents are talking in circles sitting at tables wearing polo shirts and blindly staring into table cloths
They're Probably speaking
of uneventful vacations
childrens majors
and the heat
Fake smiles over flowing into the faint air conditioning
While I sip the cold water
waiting for my migrane to dissapate

To my dismay everyone seemed judgemental and uninteresting
Average haircuts
And college tee shirts
To my dismay no one said hello when I smiled at them
Too many layers of foundation
And all too commercially pretty face structures for me to appreciate

The echos of, "You're going to love it here"
Made me ill with silence
Ignorance kissing me on the cheek
Tucking me into bed turning off the light on my nightstand
Ignorance blowing bubbles down sunny hallways as i try to catch her before it's too late

These people, the hopeful ones with statistics so meaningless to me
excessive effort put into their presentation
Make me sick with wishes of many things as they willingly act like they can tell me how I feel and will feel of things;

It makes me think:

Maybe I won't
"Love it here"

.....And I worry