Naive young bird

Am I just young?  
Am I dumb?  
Am I naive?  
Believing every lie you would tell me
Lies that you chewed up and fed to me, like the fragile baby bird that I secretly am  
Heartless they say  
Woman of steel with tear ducts to match  
But deep down I was just a baby bird waiting for you to come home and feed me more lies
More heartache  
More sleepless nights
Tears rusting these steel ducts and making their way down my face  
You left me to starve in that nest  
Waiting and waiting on you to return  
SoI flew out to venture and fend for myself  
And on my way down I saw you in another nest with another bird  
But this one was much prettier  
So much more mature and less naive  
She was fully nurtured and is everything I never thought I could be  
And darling I promise you I was dead before I even hit the ground.  
How could it be so easy to love and leave
While I’m still falling and falling each night  
Hoping that one day you'll be the one I fall into  
You never loved me and never will  
I wish I could realize this and just let it be  
But there are times I cry and cry each night for you to come back  
I've even found myself landing into random nests hoping to find a new love of my own
But many regretful nights later and you're still the one I would catch my heart flying to  
But now I know that I can fend for myself  
I can survive on my own
I've found a way to pick up wind underneath my wings whenever I find myself falling  
I've made a nest within myself  
Even though I will always be that naive, young bird  
Waiting for you to join my nest and show me how real love is supposed to feel