Zoloft

My life is making plans for the future
knowing that I want to kill myself before I accomplish them.
My life is settling for anyone
because any guy is better than no guy
right ?
My life is walking into a crowded room
and wanting to run back out
because "everyone is watching".
My life is constant disappointment
because you go out of your way for people and no one comes through for you.
My life is being raped at 14
and not being able to tell anyone.
My life is being brainwashed to hate myself
because there are more attractive girls
My life is being a talented, intelligent black girl
and never getting to shine
Because everyone blows out her candle.
My life is looking in the mirror and hating myself.
My life is wishing I was someone else
or not even being here at all.