Is this the end?

I didnt think it'd ever come to this
but in some time im going to be seeing you in a hearse
Then end up watching you get put in the dirt
damn, how am i supposed to live with this guilt?
 
Last time i saw you was a year ago
and it hurts me to say that its going to be the last
Time I'm grounded, so im locked in the house
And your time will end within the next few days
 
How could you do this to me, your family, your friends
You're  the most amazing guy, if only you could see yourself the way we do
all the memories weve had, all the things weve shared,
You're a beautiful soul thats coming to an end
 
I don't even want to think about it
thinking of you ending your life
Now im sitting here alone, crying my eyes out
trying to help  
but youre not responding to me
 
I know you're feeling alone, i can relate to that
you don't wanna talk about it, i can respect that
But at least just tell me what the fuck happened
so maybe i can start to understand that
 
I know i wont be alright without you  
but looks like you don't care about that
I'm trying to find a way to save you
but it feels like you don't want none of that
 
Your 'suicide letter' is really getting to me
its making it hard for me to even breathe  
The thought of you suffering just leaves me crying
my good old friend is practically dying.