Submissions by TheSchizophrenic (TheSchizophrenicBijou)

I wanna make a difference
I want everyone to hear what I have to say
And maybe they can take it into consideration
And learn to change their way
to stop following the crowed
and to try something new.

Which is why I like to call myself an idol
Im glad you look up to me
As i'm staring down at you
It makes me realise how pathetic people can be
How they try to please everyone else but themselves
How they try to be like everyone but not who they  are.

That's why I want you to come closer to me
And listen very carefully ...

I'm looking at my wrist, then at the blade in my hand
I glance at my belt and i'm looking for a place to hang
I think to myself, damn when did shit get this bad
I can't fight this battle anymore, I have nothing left to share
I wanna get this message through to you, even though none of you really care.

When I stand in front of the mirror
I hate everything I see.
My face, my body, my sole
I can barely look at myself whole.
Im too ugly, im too fat, and these stretch marks aren't making anthing easier.
I guess i'm just some ugly...

I didnt think it'd ever come to this
but in some time im going to be seeing you in a hearse
Then end up watching you get put in the dirt
damn, how am i supposed to live with this guilt?

Last time i saw you was a year ago
and it hurts me to say that its going to be the last
Time I'm grounded, so im locked in the house
And your time will end within the next few days

How could you do this to me, your family, your friends
You're  the most amazing guy, if only you could see yourself the way we do
all the memories weve had, all...

It's been 3 years without you by my side,
I still remember the times that we used to share
before you became so sick
and spent most of your days in the intensive care.

I remember it like it was my last dream
I was in 7th grade and at netball practice.
My mom came early, and I saw the worry in her face
and said she just came back from the hospital.

She said you aren't doing well we needed to go back,
when we arrived, I ran into your room.
And then I saw my family too,
but just then I should've knew.

I...