Why?

I've never felt such strong remorse
Did you get a fucking award
For wasting my time
Destroying my life
I cant imagine any other reason why
Why you'd play with my heart?
Was tearing me apart you sole purpose
To start and enter my life, my world
Was it all a game meant to kill the fat girl
The homewrecking whore, the bitch
The slut
I gave you my all and it wasnt enough
You lied to my face, made me feel like a Queen
But the words thrusted upon me
You didnt mean
Why didnt I see?
Lord, how could I be
So blind and negligent
The torture was evident
The abuse was so clear
Emotionally, my dear
You have wrecked me...
How could you disrespect me?
Lie to and betray me...
Some nights short of rape me
For fun?
And now that we're done
You treat me like dirt
Played both me and her
You fucking deserve
The harsh wrath of this world
....you can bet
You will forever go down as my biggest regret