The Hunting Grounds

   
let's take a walk down death row    
I'm a haunted soul    
it's always been so    
since childhood    
   
when I watched news broadcasts    
televising the likes of Ted Bundy    
somewhere my psyche split    
   
started fantasizing about kidnap, death, & rape    
I wanted to be someone's prize    
a martyr    
they'd all be sorry when I was gone    
   
I had sexual fantasies    
filled with serial killers    
that would want a child cast aside    
   
I was hurt, left reeling    
by my mom's abandonment    
so angry I was    
   
the devil never came to claim me    
God did, he showed up when no one cared    
   
fast forward I'm thirty something    
I hear about Cary Stayner on the news    
the Yosemite Park serial killer    
   
he intrigued the part of me that never died    
he said on the news he fantasized    
about killing women since childhood    
   
something possessed me    
to write to him    
tell him about our different but shared dreams    
   
talked to him about God    
explained how to be forgiven    
it's not enough to just say you are sorry    
but you have to really leave it in the past    
   
you have to stop glorifying your crimes    
can't relive it time & again    
   
was a crazy day in my life    
I never felt the need    
to reach out like this before    
   
seems like in this life    
we're all living the hunting grounds    
be it for God or the devil    
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cary_Stayner    
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ted_Bundy    
   
   
   
   
   
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