Looking For A High

i am looking for my high
i search high and low
for that elixir of happiness, joy, pure bliss
i crave what i imagine i can taste already
freedom!
i want to scream to release my pent up desire within me
i want the sensation
of guilt-free splurging, exuberant spending
of care-less laughter
pain-less somersaulting
risk-free falling in love
orgasms without heart break, without expectation, commitment, dissappointment.
a high-five
hi im alive!
see me?
recognise me
aknowledge me
my greatness, awesomeness
me achievements so they can lift me high, high above the rest
number one
im the best
i look for love
perhaps in the deepest pit
thats where iv fallen deep inlove
but i love deeper so i can be loved deeper
for the empty canyon running deep in my soul digs deep.