Killing me

Maybe they were right.
Maybe I should.
But how?
Maybe it was my fault.
Maybe if I did,
It would be better?
Maybe apologizing would help.
Maybe its to late.
What if it's to late?
Maybe they will understand.
Maybe I can fix this.
Who would be there?
Maybe if I did it once.
Maybe it won't be so bad.
Never know until you try, right?
Maybe I won't.
Maybe I should.
Why does it have to be like this?
Maybe if I pick it up.
Maybe I will then.
Will anyone miss me?
Maybe a second time.
Maybe if I do it again.
It won't hurt as bad?
Maybe once more.
Maybe the pain will go away.
What if I go to deep?
Maybe I can.
Maybe the pain will go away for good.
Will anyone care?
Maybe if I go the other way.
Maybe I will finally be free.
Should I sharpen it?
Maybe death isn't so bad.
Maybe grandma will be there.
Will she painting like she used to.
Maybe they were right.
Maybe I'll give it a try....
Grandma will be waiting.
I wonder if she has wings.
Will I get wings?
Maybe.....
Maybe I'll sleep now.
Grandma here I come.....