Torn Apart

Lingering feelings
Still haunt me
When I am torn apart
They manifest inside me
The pain of loosing old friends
And some of the new
My confusion
Is adding to the abuse
I have lost so many
I have driven them away
I need some of the to come back
I need to find away
These feelings can be fought
But not if I am weak
To the dear friends I am losing
Please hear my plea
I am sorry
Forgive me
I need you
I will do anything
I know one of my lost
friends will read this
But it is her decision
if she wants to do this
To that friend
hurt me if you must
Just come back
before I rot into dust