ORGANIC RESENTMENT  (9-8-92, (remote end of East Beach, Galveston Island, Texas)

   
   
last nights    
   stormy tides    
have cloaked    
   this open beach    
with countless tons    
   of sargassum    
seaweed    
   like one great    
long  amber    
   golden    
feathered boa    
   strung out all    
along the high    
   tide lines zone    
in both directions    
   as far as my    
eyes can see    
   yet nary    
a baby blue crab    
   nor needlefish    
can be found    
   or seen    
clinging on anywhere    
   within its    
impossibly tangled    
   translucent      
brown filigrees    
   miles and miles    
of doomed    
   shipwrecked remains    
but where only    
   a disgusting profusion    
of lifeless      
   human trash    
could be found instead    
   deeply entrapped    
entangled    
   within its beached    
now dying realms    
   which made me    
think  as i    
   suddenly recalled    
how you too    
   recently    
abandoned ship    
   as my broken    
heart sank    
   and my own    
badly shattered      
   impossibly tangled    
pathetic  human    
   remains    
washed up too    
   like all this    
rotting seaweed    
   upon this very beach    
where we first met    
   and fell in love    
yet where now    
   with each successive    
wave and tide    
   the cleansing surf    
rolls in steadily    
   each day and night    
to wash more    
   and more    
of our once love    
   ever further away    
from all my  
   memories    
from all my    
   sunken  
shipwrecked dreams
   and hopes
but here to my    
   sudden dismay    
just now    
   i was once again    
reminded      
   that your    
cold  painful ghost    
   has still not    
completely gone    
   from me   nor    
left me here just yet    
   for as i took a    
piss on the sand    
   just now    
and watched it    
   quickly sink in    
i symbolically  
   recalled your    
very similar    
   sudden    
disappearance    
   when for weeks    
you were both  
   here and there    
with me    
   in every moment  
every heartbeat  
   every breath  
then just as    
   suddenly    
in one fleeting  
   love blind  
moment    
   you too  like  
my golden pisses
   sudden
disappearance
   were and are  
from me now
   likewise alas
sunk away
   gone  forever  
sunk away
   forever gone