Notice Me?

 
 Always looking away  
never shit to say  
Hey mom, Im over here  
 
Even in the middle of the night  
all that blood  
my perfect fright  
 
But you went right back to bed  
and never said  
how scared you really were  
 
I tried again  
knowing better than  
the time before  
 
No words ever  
my tears felt like forever  
until I decided to stop  
 
Thats when you noticed  
and by then it was too late  
all that hate  
I wish you told me  
you loved me more
 
( entry in self~harm comp )