Dot Dot Dash..

Stuck in this
I'm a dot
on the horizon
Dear Horizon,
fuck me as hard
as life has, please.

Why are you so pretty,
Nature will always be
prettier than me...

girls with
skin that ain't
white aren't pretty

I've always been told
'My cum would look
good on olive, damn..
the thingssssss
they'd have given.

M,
I never asked
if your wife was
English too.

You had an addiction
to fags and
tea and
foreign girls...

I was 17
I had R
we were
forever.

He cheated...
when I told you
I wanted to die
you said
'I won't fuck my
toy if she's
....
riddled with scars

Flashhhhhhhbackkkkkk

I am 17
My first true love
was long gone
My second
true love was
a paradox
he cheated

told me younger girls
were better fucks
And you kind of
have a crush on
our Nick too, so..

So did you,
"I'd totally go
gay for him,damn..."

but back to the...
flashhhback
I am seventeen
I had r
he left
    he left
me for
her and
   and
I had
M
 too
(we just
spoke...
then)

I am sat
on a toilet
   the lid down
a bottle of bleach in
my hand
  cap loosened

I am crying.
no one hears
   my demise.

I think of possible
ways to reach M
and my heart aches
'I'll never fuck my
property with that
many scars'

You had a
Mrs.
didn't that mean
any bloody thing?

I put the cap down
the bottle down
pills away.

I survived for you
but I'm in the trap still
men want things
men want my body and
I can never wash your
mark off
   even though
your touch was
a ghost...

    Dear M,
If someday
life doesn't
do what you want it to do
for you.
Mr two-cars and mr
flashy-house and
beautiful
   beautiful job.
         If someday
you find yourself
listening to Linkin Park
like we did- together-
    Give me a shout
I'll buy you a pint
hold your hand
   tell you i'm never
leaving.


Brexitttttttt

M,
I wonder if
you're a eurosceptic
 as well as septic
  you are-were-
beautiful poison.

So Goodnight moon,
and goodnight you...- Go Radio