SELF DESTRUCTION-lost life-no hope to far gone

Hold a gun to my head
Rap a noose around my neck
Kill me

IT doesn't matter .....never has

Disappear without a trace
Without the place
No safety
No love
Just the gun
Just the attack
......Of the demons........OF life?

A single slice becomes the instant remedy the distraction the ultimate need the oone thing to take away the pain

Soon it's an addiction
Mentality and body unravels
While the mind travels
Causing my sanity to unravel
All of life becoming a life long battle
Sanity and insanity
The safety soon travels to the arms of the devil
To entangle the dreams

Soon trapped and pinned to the devil
Who gives false remedies
But to fill the disease
That is the mind

Hand me a boy and whisper a single prayer over my head
The note to suicide becomes inevitable
Yet untouchable
Pushing the breath of life through my veins yet can't see the pains

Soon handed a best friend and people to care for
Drowning in the dark
Stumbling looking for a reason

Yet left alone with face to the ground
Left for dead craving for alcohol
A need to watch myself bleed
A single need to cut
Soon left and lost in the unforgiving cold to be ripped apart by the wolves

He lies so close a close friend.....
LEFT ME TO BLEED AND DIE
CHOKING AND BLEEDING
HE CAN'T SEE ME
THE PAIN
THE DESTRUCTION

I need to die the whisper engulfs watch the wretch die
yet they all care say stay strong
force me to live in a place i don't belong
With a lost talent
A talent that fades
Hold me destroy me
I'm no longer relivent and can no longer care
That talent that disappears writing no longer having the emotion to do it and now im gone