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The Ache And The Burn.
*****************SELF HARM TRIGGER WARNING!
This is a poem based on the struggle of recovery years later. Please do not read if you are sensitive to the situation!
There is an ache and a burn under my skin that beckons the familiar bite of a razor.
I can feel the fire and the ice coursing though my veins, scorching my insides, begging for a release. It's an itch I will never again scratch, something I will forever leave in the past.
But I will remain a slave to the crave.
There is fire, there is rain, there is a storm of desperation to want to end the pain brewing below.
The suppressed emotions and the embarrassments rattling around deep inside fighting to escape, to slip through the slits once again.
But instead I find my ground and listen to the sound of reason that I have found within myself.
I let the scars fade and urges disintegrate.
I hold on to the strength I have built and the courage that now surges through me.
To move onward i must defeat the fixation.
I must attend to the damage I have done.
I must allow myself to rehabilitate.
This is a poem based on the struggle of recovery years later. Please do not read if you are sensitive to the situation!
There is an ache and a burn under my skin that beckons the familiar bite of a razor.
I can feel the fire and the ice coursing though my veins, scorching my insides, begging for a release. It's an itch I will never again scratch, something I will forever leave in the past.
But I will remain a slave to the crave.
There is fire, there is rain, there is a storm of desperation to want to end the pain brewing below.
The suppressed emotions and the embarrassments rattling around deep inside fighting to escape, to slip through the slits once again.
But instead I find my ground and listen to the sound of reason that I have found within myself.
I let the scars fade and urges disintegrate.
I hold on to the strength I have built and the courage that now surges through me.
To move onward i must defeat the fixation.
I must attend to the damage I have done.
I must allow myself to rehabilitate.
Published 2nd Mar 2017
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- Edited 2nd Mar 2017 6:39am
2nd Mar 2017 6:09am
I'm glad you have courage to share yourself, which is a huge step toward the light of self-discovery and freedom. Thank you.
2nd Mar 2017 6:44am
Thank you so much. I'm trying to be more courageous and share more of myself.
2nd Mar 2017 6:31am
"But I will remain a slave to the crave" > such a strong line! We can change our behavior, but the need is a part of us...
I commend you for having the courage to write about your struggle... stay strong!
I commend you for having the courage to write about your struggle... stay strong!
2nd Mar 2017 6:45am
Thank you so much. I was nervous about opening up and writing about. Posting it was even more never racking so thank you!
2nd Mar 2017 8:46am
I fully understand! I opened up about my "illness" and that was the hardest thing to do... at the same time it's really freeing, so keep outing yourself :-)
2nd Mar 2017 9:01pm
2nd Mar 2017 11:40pm
Well done for stopping it and for sharing your experience. This contains some very interesting images yet they are understandable and relatable ideas for others who have been through the same. An emotional piece. Xx
3rd Mar 2017 4:21am
11th Mar 2017 8:50pm
Self aware and honest. Caithasno_backbone, I commend your courage.
Take care of yourself, my dear.
LostGirl.
Take care of yourself, my dear.
LostGirl.
27th Mar 2017 5:21am
28th Mar 2017 1:53pm
Wow ,
That was touching.
Gunna be honest ,
Ive never quite understood cutting. But thats just me .
I tell you though , i do understand addictions.
Just gotta replace with bad ones with good ones :)
You are strong for showing willpower against your urges to harm oneself.
You are courageous for sharing this, you are courageous for fighting it.
Give yourself some love always , take away the hate
:)
Good write
This is a motivational self observation, these words could help inspire many other the combat their urges, what ever they may be
Keep fucking fighting soldier
That was touching.
Gunna be honest ,
Ive never quite understood cutting. But thats just me .
I tell you though , i do understand addictions.
Just gotta replace with bad ones with good ones :)
You are strong for showing willpower against your urges to harm oneself.
You are courageous for sharing this, you are courageous for fighting it.
Give yourself some love always , take away the hate
:)
Good write
This is a motivational self observation, these words could help inspire many other the combat their urges, what ever they may be
Keep fucking fighting soldier
28th Mar 2017 3:28pm
Thank you so,so much. I appreciate this a lot. That was very thoughtful and inspiring.
