deepundergroundpoetry.com

there's thunder outside and i dreamed of you again

i need to say all of this fast before grey turns into blue once again
because grey is not good for explaining and i feel it coming back so please
i write this as though it's to you though you will never read it
but you are the only person i feel motivated to explain to right now

when you kissed me and i asked myself if this was even real
all that day i was asking my friends
am i dreaming because i swear that would never happen
looking back now i was probably right

you smiled at me later that day you've never smiled at me like that before
and i still didn't know if i was just delusional because things don't work like this
you were acting so different but if this was a dream i think i hoped
i would never wake up because surely this was a better reality

i'm this crying and i don't have time to say everything i want to need to
it's raining outside and i've been thinking too much but that is not why i am crying
the tears are stinging my eyes my cheeks stained with saltwater i am crying because
i just woke up