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Green With It
Flipping thru the memory rolodex
I'm looking for it..
That moment, that incremental moment,
When I turned.
Turned from happiness for others.
My broken heart,
My sudden awareness of life
With no children.
The Mac truck hitting me hard.
And I see them,
Happy.
Young.
Time is theirs.
And I hate them.
This is deep, deep, deep.
Forgiveness isn't forthcoming.
Yet.
I'm looking for it..
That moment, that incremental moment,
When I turned.
Turned from happiness for others.
My broken heart,
My sudden awareness of life
With no children.
The Mac truck hitting me hard.
And I see them,
Happy.
Young.
Time is theirs.
And I hate them.
This is deep, deep, deep.
Forgiveness isn't forthcoming.
Yet.
Published 4th Feb 2017
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4th Feb 2017 6:45am
Loo, the inner turmoil and pain is palpable in this piece. When I think of envy I often recall passages from Shakespeare's sonnet 29:
"Wishing me like to one more rich in hope,
Featured like him, like him with friends possessed,
Desiring this man's art, and that man's scope,
With what I most enjoy contented least;"
And then I try to disabuse myself of such unproductive yearnings and concentrate on who I am and what talents and unique qualities that I possess. Small consolation I know. Bravisima bella poeta!
"Wishing me like to one more rich in hope,
Featured like him, like him with friends possessed,
Desiring this man's art, and that man's scope,
With what I most enjoy contented least;"
And then I try to disabuse myself of such unproductive yearnings and concentrate on who I am and what talents and unique qualities that I possess. Small consolation I know. Bravisima bella poeta!
4th Feb 2017 3:18pm
4th Feb 2017 7:52pm
9th Mar 2018 1:31am
stasis...and pain...what a suspension...at least you got to weave it into a veil. surely that provides some cover...im almost sorry it brought me pleasure.
11th Mar 2018 7:10am
Even in the saddest lines there is pleasure for it makes us feel a connection. Something rare these days.
I'm glad you found pleasure in it. Makes me feel like I've accomplished something!
I'm glad you found pleasure in it. Makes me feel like I've accomplished something!
