Tell me (Rap about deperssion)

Tell me do you know what's it like to be so far from the light
To be consumed by the darkness and cry each night
Your lost, depressed and your life is a mess
Your hope is gone, you keep running the same miles
And faking a smile, the pain just continues to pile

But how much more can you take, there's so much ache
 and ya hate’n your past mistakes.
And here's the thing, you can't think straight
And you ask yourself is it too late cause as the rate of the pain increase
The more you're slipping away.

Over the years you've shed so many tears
And your gears are giving up. You tucked it away for awhile
But now the depression is worst than ever, and it seems as it's never going to get better
So you take comfort in a blade and made several lines in your wrist
Just missing the veins. But what's to gain?

You say to yourself, you'll never do it again as you lay down the blade.
You made the decision but something's missing. So you pick it up.
Cause the rut that you're in really sucks. So it didn't take much to put it against your arm
And cut. You let it bleed and seems like it's what you really need but not.
Cause the heaviness in your head is gone but not for long.
Two, four, six different times and now there's more than twenty lines

But where did it all start? people have torn your heart apart
And along came horrible thoughts. You're suicidal and racing the clock
And that knife just mocks. In just a split second it all could stop
But no, there has to be a better light and I have to beat the thoughts inside my head but I feel so dead

My heart is broken and so is my mind, so I'm sorry if sometimes I'm blind
For what was molded by love was folded by hate

I'm slowly dying inside, I've been used and abused, and perhaps you too
But I can't take this life and I'm too weak to fight
Nothing seems right and I've lost my strength to fight
My lungs feel tight, when I'm alone at night.
Cause that's when it's just me and my thoughts
I've fought it but have lost , and I'm suffering.
I should ask for help, but I keep on the mask instead of asking
And how long will this last, i'm losing myself fast

So tell me do you know what's it like to be so far from the light
To be consumed by the darkness and cry each night.