Me, Myself, and I

Take this bottle from my hand
And maybe we can start again
Just promise me
You will not leave
Because once
Is more then enough for me
Days were months
Weeks were years
And ever since then
I've had this fear
That I would be alone
And you would be on your throne
And I would fight
And try to make it through the night
I won the battle
I lost the war
My sadness my fears I outpour
Into the night
As I fight
A war that seems
Its you against me
But in the end
Through the screams
I know its me
Thats stabing me
You might have landed
The first blow
But I know its me
That replays the scene
And each time
I wince
As the blade
Makes its way
Through the skin
But its really within
That brings me pain
Everytime is like the first time
The shock
The sting
And that thing
That makes me feel
Like I should be dead
As the blood flows
So does the pain
Because in the end its all the same
Its the same night the same day
The same sabotage
Because Im the enemy
And even tho
This is self mutilation
I have no proof
No indication
That I have been stabed
Set up and betrayed
Its this mental infection
That enters my brain
Its too real
Its the FeAr
Its something we all know
And dispise
Its even worse then the lies
That the comact and comprees
Into something that will pass the test
As a cure
But in the end
Even after I break free
I'll climb into the cage
They kept me in day after day
My little hole
I can call home
Because inside
I feel like
In the end it will be the same
Just me, myself, and I