I hate myself

I'm in hell,
Maybe I'm just crazy.
I can't do this anymore,
I still love you.
I drink to try to forget,
Yet I can't.
I'm in hell,
Maybe I'm just insane.
I want to let you go,
But your all I think about.
I drink to take away the pain,
But it only get worse.
I'm in hell,
Maybe I'm just clingy.
I still love you,
But I hate that I do.
I drink hoping I won't wake up,
But I still do.
I'm in hell,
No matter how much I try....
I still die every day,
Killing myself with these memories.
I still can't get over you,
Yet I lie to myself that I am.
I drink to maybe one day,
Never wake up again...
I will never forget.
No matter how hard I try...