restless

drove about a thousand miles last week
ended up in the suburbs of chicago
took the train in
walked around
saw the lights
all set for christmas
took the pink train to elburn back
saw someone who looked just like you
across the car
we made eyes
got off two stops before the last
didn't turn around
couldn't look back



it is negative twenty three degrees outside right now
pining on you being somewhere colder
but the drip on my upper lip
freezes

it's me
never moving on
just getting better at forgetting

i'm at the high bridge with my feet dangling over the edge
pretending in floods they could just be wading

the mississippi swallows the moon again