A Moment in time

This moment in time.

It's a momentous occasion. With all of the expectations that have been created throughout an exponential amount of time.  Constant daydreams, and hopeful supposition building this up to extremely large proportion.

Whether self importance or publicly significant, it matters little. I immerse myself in the vivid emotions, intertwining senses so intense I  feel as if it may be make believe. It's almost to intense, the buildup the immense anticipation.  it's a kind struggle to stay in the moment, but for to miss would be an absolute mistake. So precious that I find myself thinking how it will feel like to look back on this event. future feelings of half guilt yearning for the actual feelings to return, the other just feeling grateful for experiencing it.  

The amount of energy which has been used to construct this state of mind, this moment in time, and the relentless work that has embodied my being; Unfathomable. Whether based in selfish pursuit or completely altruistic act, It's what has moved me to strive for more than the original expectations.

Is this it? Will it get any better than this? Frustration peers in. The unknown, confusion of thoughts. Starting one place and ending up in a completely different place; or thought track i started with, and imagined i would get to.

But that original euphoric feeling sets back in. thoughts, feelings, and questions, add to the occasion.  I'm happy to be here, finally in the moment.

This moment in time.