A Mother's Goodbye

Day in and day out, she left without saying goodbye
my mother never really liked goodbyes
she always feared she'd never say hello again
I was the only person she had left
so I never forced her to say goodbye

Seasons changed and years passed
I was getting ready to leave for college
I could tell my mother wanted to say it
I hugged her and whispered "Don't say it"
she held her peace, as I held her

My future was upon me
time was on my side
I turned and yelled for my mother
I wanted her to ride with me to the airport
I haven't said goodbye yet

As I walked on the plane,
my mother said goodbye
I told her I would she her again
but she disagreed...and walked away
she left as if she was in a hurry

I sat down wondering;
as we were taking off, I realized it
my father before his passing
told me that I would join him
when my feet roamed the sky

It was a spiritual statement
to ease my fear of flying
another plane was landing
as we climbed higher
the pilot assured us we were safe

but my fate was sealed
when my mother said goodbye
I wasn't sure what to think,
I reached for the safety mask
then tightened my seatbelt

I died that day,
I suffocated myself
hoping to save my life
instead I took it...
This was my FATE.