Imagine me and you

Imagine.
Imagine I wasn't damaged
Imagine you didn't notice
Imagine if you didn't care
Imagine if you didn't see me in the light
We're you could see my soul wasn't so bright.
I was pushing you away keeping you at a distance
How did I miss this.
I didn't want you
I didn't ask for this
I'm stuck with you.
I can't leave
You see me smile
You choke me
You see me happy
And you can't stand it.
You hate me
You took my childhood
You took it away and then turned me into my most beloved characters.
You made me grow into Eeyore
You gave me the anxiety of Piglet
The inability to sit still like Tigger
The ability to notice flaws like Rabbit.
And the eating disorders of Pooh Bear.
I wish you would leave.
But you can't leave.
Because you are me.
You aren't the real me.
You're the me with insecurities
The me that doesn't want me happy
The me that's scared to be happy.
The me that is just scared.
But I can't loose you
Don't tell but I don't want to lose you
The fear, and sadness is my life.
It's the old under the new.
There is no changing it
It's become who I am.
Because I'm scared
With out you. I'll be boring
Just imagine me and you.