Holiday Issues You Won't Understand

He tries his best but he doesn't understand
I try to explain but I end up shutting down
No words can express the feelings I get
From the moment Halloween ends to New years
Everything seems to fall apart around this time of year
I lay in bed and cry, there are too many emotions
Swirling inside my head, drowning again and again
My family comes out of the woodwork to cause pain
I try to be strong but I end up turning to him for comfort
He doesn't know what to do when I break down and cry
I show him the texts, the issues that are not in my head
All he does is hold me, assure me he'll never leave
But everyone does and I'm always left alone this time of year
He'll be going home to his family and I'll... be in my bed
Angry towards all those with weak complaints of dry turkey,
The cousins they don't like, of loud children and over cooked food
While I'm in bed alone, crying from my loneliness that you won't understand
He loves a broken girl who's trying to keep her issues from tainting his joy