TRAUMA

Trauma said
'I will come back'
My desires
under attack
In Divinely
right time
I shall write
its last, least rhyme

Hide away and cover up
The blame is welcomed in a snap
Foreign thoughts compass my own
Hate the world and be alone

A childhood memory
A long, narrow balcony
Guilt, rejection
depression and agony
Underestimating
self worth and whole being
A consciousness as fringe
as my soul's earth  dwelling

So I didn't love
anyone in real
I knew what I
was supposed to feel
and patterned it
to the point that I
believed that that was
love actually like

Trauma gave birth to uncounted phobias
A war was started along all my body parts
A rebel like me should never be compromised
so I had my false self exposed and analyzed

Embracing trauma within my heart
Forgiveness is the rabbit in the hat
It's only okay to think of the past
in shake of major realizations of us

Deep boundaries must be destroyed
I created a fog of endless void
The rising sun of my sacred entity
revealed to me my true identity

Love is the key
Embrace the love
Rename it by will
and measure it on
a meter device
that has no rate
with bottom as
resentful hate

Trauma tends to block us out
The very truth is we alone doubt
that there is life beyond all deaths
we ain't what society
decides and sets


Gratefulness
electrifies
It burns the egoism's
status lies
The meaning of life
is nothing and ALL
Its shape is a twisted
multi-layer cross-road