Alone

I have a lack of motivation,
I can't seem to care,
I'm stuck in a loop,
I'm still here when I need to be there.

I have no friends,
And I have no family,
So I created my nest,
And made it homely.

Now I'm scared to leave,
To open up my door,
Instead, I tear myself down,
As I lay on my floor.

I don't bother to take care of myself,
Pizza boxes towering over me,
No intent to fix it,
I need to break free.

Why do I do this to myself?
It only makes me worse,
I built my own prison,
I created my own personal curse.

I hate being alone,
I need the connections,
But I'm scared to reach out,
I'll never meet their expectations.

All I do is sit,
My heart made of stone,
Because no matter what I do,
I will always be alone.