close to rebirth

A weird discussion with the clouds
They answer back, as strange as it sounds
Advice and pictures in my head
lead me to where I supposed to be led
There is no wind but boughs bestir
fortune tellers' s truths  pester
Fears risen of survival
Joy dancing through this trial.
My thinking is curving right and left
from an endless path to a ending bet
Up the ladder, pick a lie
Down the borders, ego is sly
Fucked up remedies no longer work
Releasing pain to the unknown
In and out of my darkest zone
All I've known
completely gone