God

Thinking crazy shit...
Hating life and debating on if GODS real or fake ass myth!
Since I was little my dad always told me
"this white man was a phony"
If you want something you work for it!
Praying to this God aint going to pay your bills or feed you when you starving!!!
Now that I'm grown and living on my own becoming an addict and before I used to be healthy and active.
I was doing good this is where I think if God so good why did he choose for me to lose all my goods and fill me with bad habits?
he destroyed me as a woman.
Well at least that's my opinion.
It's easier to just blame him.
For my bad decisions.
I know damn well he ain't letting me rest in heaven!
All I'm saying is I'm debating on this "holy God of a man"
He aint nothing like all you Church suckers be saying!
Nanalokz