Missed chances

Nothing in this dark dysmal exsi ,
I take my cold out side stance.,
But your being there whenever ,
Allowed me dare i say it to hope,
This time i gave myself the noose
Tied rope,
Wanting you ,needing your comfort,
,But the dream of meeting you,
Kept me focused. Kept me sane
Now i wish id only let your words
Into my brain ,
,Not allowing the attachment to grow
and take root.in my heart
A phone relationship against my grain
, but you made it worth every
Minute with  sweet nothings
Those moments became my
Everything  ,I had so many doubts
. finding it hard to believe
All those promises so far away
Yet you made me feel again ...
and gave me emotions
I could not keep at bay,
what else can i say
When,Words cant do justice
..To the emptiness in my chest,
The gaping hole in my howling soul,
That wants only you ,
Theres nothing I can do,or say
But every word I said to you,
I meant .My darkest angel
  I miss you,and I feel
 Ive missed my chance ......