An attempt at infiltrating the dreams that engulf our realities

I opened my eyes
And it was all black
I closed my eyes and couldn't tell the difference
I thought about a nice memory
I heard raindrops falling down
On asbestos
I felt desert heat on my cheeks
The cup of coffee was my savior
I felt jingles, coming from your feet
I waited for your softness
And I heard something.
My eyes tried to wade through the blackness.
Now a pair of yellow lights started moving
Eyes of an animal are very comforting
Even of they sing of a certain death
I closed the eyes and waited for the sharp teeth
Your hands caressed me
But I don't know you
Your face is something I never dreamed of.
Before this moment.
I wanted to burn in a fire then
But I couldn't speak a word
I knew my mother tongue
But I didn't know any words
The smell is getting harder to handle
I want to jump into the sea because the teeth just sank into my shoulder
Because I am already dead and I exist only in my dream
Because you are all the women I let down
Because you are all the women I hate
Because you show me there are people better than me
Because all I can hope for is pity
Because all I hope for is dying alone
But I dream of dying old in a bed
I dream of the woman I met at a bar
And I left because I didn't believe she could care
I dream that I didn't see her sad, angry and feeling discarded.
Like a used tissue.
I dream I had a sound sleep that day.
I dream that a dog bit my neck in a dark cave.
Maybe it was a wolf.
Maybe I woke up.
Maybe this is a new dream.