No Love

When born we all look for a mother to look up to
When growing up we look for a mother or father to love us..
When alive we just want to feel like we matter to the world

 She seen the light of day change to night
She seen more blood that you can count on a knife

  She wanted to be loved maybe accepted
But each time she walked out the house or stayed to herself.. Family looked better

  Just a smile to disguise the pain
They pushed all her hurt down a drain

  She searched for a mothers love, couldnt wait to say the words mom
  Except.. There was no love.. It was all gone

  Family turned their back
  Dad was no where to be found
  Mother mine as well buried her daughter into the ground

  Her mothers house was a broken home
  She felt the same way she felt in NJ.. like she was alone

  Mother spit words of hate
Daughter wondered how much longer should she stay

  Mother smacked her around a few times
But its discipline... I see no crime

  She dreamed of being next to her mother for so long
  But no one told her that shed have to pretend to be strong

  A mother love is what she hoped for
  Instead got kicked and thrown to the floor

  A heart.. Her love completed.. But theres still a hole
It doesnt take much for her heart to turn cold

  So much anger for the world
Just a broken 18 year old girl

  So much anger towards her mother
Its as if they have hatred for eachother

  She continues to bury the pain and hurt deep within
  You'll never get to know her deadly sin

  Knife so shiny
  Razor so clean
  Pills so strong
  Just one shot and shes gone

   Cant do that with a child on the way
   Yeah.. Shes pregnant and promises to be a better mom
When her son or daughters storm sets in she will keep them calm

  But in order to fight her childrens demons..
She must kill her own..