5: 74: Human Parasites

Excerpt 74 from Journal 5:  'Reaching My True Love'
 -From 'Journals To My True Love, Part 2'

If human relationships are parasitic,
  we are each others parasite...
If God has created this than we are
  at its mercy...
My Love, you are like my boy child
  whom I want to care for selflessly...
But I also want to possess and own you
  to give all this meaning...
My hands want to hold you and my
  heart wants you to need me...
I want you to cry out for me like the
  baby bird for sustenance...
I want you blind and helpless so I
  can lead you...
I want you to be trapped deep in a
  chasm where only I know its location...
I want to be the only one whom placed
  you there...
My Love, I want to be the only one
  to rescue you...
I want you to latch onto me for
  sustenance and survival...
I want you weak and pitiful and
  unable to fly away...
I want your skin to be pale and
  translucent and frail and featherless...
So that you may need my protection...
I want you to cry for me fervently
  in desperation and despair...
I want to be the only one who
  comforts you...
I want you to know how I once felt
  when I was helpless and weak...
I want you to feel alone as I did...
I want you broken by heartache...
I want to be the only one who understands...
My heart feeds on your destitution...
But wants to feed it back to you...
I want to grow what you need from me...
It is a circle that is fed by its own inertia...
The inertia is the parasitic human nature...