Reclused abuse

Nothing matters  
It's all a joke
Choking on a spaghetti o
No matter how hard I try
Life cheats and lies  
And I'm trying to be nice
Really I am  
No guns anymore  
No violence in my plan  
I'm trying so hard to
I haven't robbed anyone in a year or two
Pistol whipped
Or beaten anyone to tears
Ya I know it shouldn't be hard
But you didn't have my job
Enforcing is intense chaos  
At any moment you might have to crush some jaw
Take the steel and slice in raw  
Jaws dropped
Popped 4 shots  
Grab my dues and move along
But I'm a working man now  
Straight clean and making clean money
Nothing funny
Well nothing illegal  
And thats the best I can do  
And it sucks I could make what I do in a month
In a day the other  
More fun way
But you gotta grow up someday  
Learn to play the 9 to 5 game
Boring and lame  
Sigh...
I just wanna punch someone in the face