A Note Before

The darkness clouds through my shrouds
While red drips from my veins
And my heart whimpers
The tears from my eyes run with the blood
The blood from my wrists
From my soul
Coloring the world around me
Painting a portrait for me
Lost into the sea
Flashbacks and pain
Clouds floating and the rain
When the pain all runs out of my body
Then I will be happy
And I will know my place in the world
And they will notice me....
And see past the person who smiles
Feel the feelings in me for just a while
While I slowly slip
And the pain doesn't hurt as much anymore
And I'll miss my family and friends
The people who didn't even notice
Didn't notice me getting to this point
I can't even make a fist anymore
Whats the point of hurting anymore
whats the point....darkness
The world holds my blood
I'm happy..
I'm so scared and I'm happy