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I'd never call it a cop out

If I could stop it I would 
Just because I wake up guilty from all I did.. It doesn't make it ok
Seeing the blood, sparking up old fears
        I never call it a cop out though
Nothing gives me the right to say 
I didn't mean it!!
I do try to control myself 
But When the room starts to spin 
My leg starts  twitching 
I can't stop the blood from rushing to my head 
All I see is black
The person that hurt me with there  words.. "gone''
 the voices telling me to stop "unheard"
Feeling my knuckles rip open,
Won't  even wake me up from that, fucked up  daze.. 

Maybe If I  could turn back time and erase everything that happened to me  this probably wouldn't be 
I'd be able to argue with a person
Without the fear of blacking out, its scary seeing them black spots 
The Anger built up from a decade of torture ,being the source to fuel me..
But still
I would never call it a cop out 
I'm doing it 
Unfortunately I just can't control every aspect about me,,, 
Written by Gg78
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