Dew

I hate being alone
All the thoughts flood by frontal lobes
The feelings I have been given
They all come into view
It's just you
You ruined me and you played me
You kissed me and made me whole
Then you struck me down into your own personal hell
You made me crave hate and pain
I love the deep cuts I provide myself
The deep wells of disgust for my own life
The thoughts were beaten into my skull
That I am no good
Just trash to be disposed of
I hate being alone
I hate being alive
You killed me best
And maybe that's why I'm distressed
Craving the pain and trying so hard to reach the pedestal you put me on
Though I have fallen and I am weak
I push and prod at my skin to break that barrier
I am so alone